it seems odd to honor the anniversary of someone's death. grandma would probably think i was nuts. but as i looked back over the several posts made here around her death, i sit back and reminisce. she was a great friend. a friend i could use more than ever now.
she would have loved her. my annabelle. they would have been fast friends, even at the age of 8 months. it seems silly to somehow think about it, but it's true. i can almost picture them together. before she was born, grandma would have taken me to the yarn store to pick out yarn to make something cozy for her. then we would have gone to the italian coffee shop down the street, or for burgers at Fred's. and when annabelle was born, she would have kissed her little face and talked to her and told her how loved she was. and then we would have gone to love inc and picked out some things for her, while grandma introduced her to every person she had ever known, and even to people she didn't. i don't know how, but some way i will impart that love on my daughter.
i have an incredible legacy of women. my grandmother was the most uniquely loving person i know. she made everyone feel special and different and lovely. my mother is the most giving and wise woman i know. i trust her more than any other person, and rest comfortably in her words and love.
may i be that woman. myself, and yet with the beautiful characteristics of the women who have paved the way before me. and though i've said it before, it is worth repeating. annabelle is the most blessed little girl to have these women go before her.
2 comments:
This is beautiful, Katie. I miss your grandma and my own so much, too.
I have no doubts that you'll be just as loving and giving and wise for little Annabelle. Now and Always.
You are a super mom. Annabelle is lucky to have you and your mom as women to look up to!
Today was a tough, tough day and not just because of the anniversary of Grandma's passing. But, while it was tough, and ugly at times, it is a reminder of what a gift she was - and continues to be for me, because she taught me about being strong and being loving. She taught me about voluntarism, about doing what you're good at and putting family and friends first. And, about the value of a glass of wine at the end of a very long day. I love you, Juliette Carpenter and I think about you every day!
Katie, thank you for keeping this going!
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